Internet down, didn’t pay bill again. Sihui no money le, going bankrupt, have to sleep along the streets:{ Hahaha. So boring without it, arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Alright, one module down as this afternoon just completed marketing presentation. Think our group did the best among all. I’m serious(: Coming next shall be IT 1193 presentation-.- Gotten screw my cells up and play with the codes:/ Shall start my revision soon after all the projects finished? But whenever I reached home, I feel like sleeping. Feel like slapping me up and knock some senses onto me right?! Hahah(:

Company dinner on 9August! Heard from them that dinner for previous years is (spells) B-U-F-F-E-T! Hurray, Sihui’s love! Hahah(: But... ... .. which mean my ‘baby’ is going to grow again:/ How sad?! Shall force myself to shit everything out after company dinner. LOLS:D lalalallalalalalalla :P

Failed to do my part. I thought I could treat everything as normal but sometimes I just tend to ‘avoid’ you. LOLS. I thought I could stop being feeling terrible, but sometimes it just can’t be helped:/ But at least, it’s much better than before:P Got improvement arhs, Sihui(: Think I just can’t help liking you more and more. Whenever I think that everything is not the same as we were together, my heart ache. Whenever I feel that you bo chap about it (hope you are), my heart ache. When your reply is not what I hoped for, heart ache again. That’s when my tear rolls down again:/ But still, I sometime put on a fake smile in front of you. LOLS. Sometime, I just hoped that everything is not started at all, so that I won’t feel so troubled. Zhao Sihui, stop feeling sad over him again! Smile more:D

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12:37 am
HOHOHO. woke up at 3.30pm just now. superrrr shiok arhs !(: Celebrate gary's bdae ytd with kiahui, sandy, andy, choon han, duliang and xi hut. Ah di joined us later at for the movie. Watch The X-file. Movie was so-so, ending was so -.-! Bus-ed home back after that, too tired to go for supper. Hahha(:

My younger brother won something and he intend to scare me-.- You know those soft-soft thing, touch like jelly one then can stick onto the wall when you throw it against the wall. Ya, that's the thing my brother won and the creature he took is a RAT -.- Super look like the real one, color also almost the same. He know I scare of it and he told me this:" Haha, you scare right. Tml when you sleeping, I'm gotten put on your face!" DUH, can you believe a primary one kid doing this to his sister-.- FAINT ! hahha(:

Memories will always be kept in my mind. I think of you more than him. I miss you more than him. Shld I really let go the past?! I and him is just a beautiful dream which will never ever come true. (:

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5:00 pm
Random posting again(: Things finally make it cleared, I've made my decision. I thought my decision was right and doesn't feel so sad over it at first. But when a brand new day starts, I began to feel so sad/hurt. Hahaha(: Idk why too. Tears began to roll down whenever I saw his msg or recall the things that we've done! Tears keep rolling down and down. Cant get into sleep so easily, whenever I closed my eyes, images start to appear and yes; I cried again. Lols(: Weird right, hahha. SIHUI SOT LE. Was thinking that I can faced him in school like normal. At first, everything was alright. But dk why after I helped him withdraw money, feel so terrible. Brother and I walked at the back and ya, I cried again:( Thanks brother for your tissue(: He seems like taking it very easy which make me feel more sad. Dk why lahs(: I think I began to like you alot, just like wht kiahui said. If not, I won't feel so terrbile:( Now, I start to suspect my decision:/ LOLS. Whatever the case, sihui gotten get over it. I can and must overcome this period ! (: No point crying spilled milk ?! HAHAHHAHA ! :D
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9:52 pm
1. The person who last tag you is: Zhao Jie
2. Your relationship with him/her is: (Used to be my ah lao)
3. Your five impression of him/her: Funny, joker, caring, emo kia, friendly
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: The photo that he gave to me
5.The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: You happy and I will be happy
6.If he/she become your lover, you will : It's already a past.... ...
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: His confidence!
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: It wont happen (:
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: No reason as it wont happen ! (:
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is: Happy (:
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: GREAT :D
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?: Crazy girl !
13. The characters you love of yourself are: Staying happy always (:
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: IDK, i simply love myself (:
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: Rich tai-tai , hahah(:
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: I LOVE YOU ALL(:

Pass this Quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.Those who had did the quiz can ignore...those named,plz do it...dun ignore ya...haha

1:Jannifer
2:Pei Qin
3: Hwee chin
4: Yun Qing
5: Shi Yun
6: Dian
7: Ashikin
8: Hui Xiang
9: Bing Liang
10: Choong Seng

18.Who is no6 having relationship with? No one (:
19. Is no.9 a male or female? Male (:
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? LOLS. Not possible (:
22. What is no.2 studying about? O level, jiayoo arhs ! (:
23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Few hrs ago, in msn(:
24. What kind of music band does no.8 like? IDK, go ask him instead (:
25. Does no.1 have any siblings 2 sisters, she's the youngest(:
26. Will you woo no.3? We are 'xiang qing xiang ai' (:
27. How about no.7? She's cute, can consider (:
28. Is no.4 single? Yes(: My Song Da Jie
29. What is the surname of no.5? Ong
30. What 's the hobby of no.4? Hunting for shuai ge in school ? That's why SONG and TANG Dynasty does (:
31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? They are once classmates(:
32. Where is no.2 studying at? Juying Sec(:
33. Talk something casually about no.1: A crazy girl like me, my beloved best friend who always share my trouble and happiness(:
34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? NO(:
35. Where does no.9 live at? Near Jurong Point(:
36. What colour does no.4 like? Hmmm, im not too sure(:
37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends? YES!! (:
38. Does no.7 like no.2?YES (:
39. How do you get to know no.2? Since sec one (: I miss the past lots!!!
40)Does no.1 have any pets?Nope (:
41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? YES (:

Bye Diary,
1:25 am
Out with Pei qin, Sandy and Shuhui(: First time going out with just the FOUR of us. Shuhui was late, but she informed everyone that she won't be late and will be early-.- LOLS. Headed to far east and lunch-ed at LJS. Saw 'guang-tou lao' , that's the nickname we gave to him last time(because he was botak when we first know him.) Shopping time next!! Saw a top, tried it but didn't buy from far east, i brought it from bugis instead :/ Bugis's clothes are way cheaper than others, but... ... .. the crowd are always much BIGGER AND CROWDED than other which is why I hardly go bugis for shopping(: Departed with Shuhui and Pei Qin as they have to go home early. Continue shopping with Sandy in bugis junction. Was looking for shoes as my legs are pain (I was wearing heel the whole day -.-) But nothing caught my attention-.- Train-ed back to jp, had dinner at kopitam(: Saw two blouses at bossini!! I wna get it when i got money from dad (: Hopefully he can pass me the money later :D

I love chatting with my beloved friend. Firstly, they can give you advise. Second, they know you well when being friends for many years(: Thanks Sandy for your words, I will think hard before making my final decision:/

My attitude towards you nowadays isn't positive as before. I admit feelings are mixed again. I was sort of 'avoiding' you when see you. This is because idk how to react to you the same as before. I will feel terrible if I continue to behave the same attitude towards you as before, because I know it doesn't come true from me. I was just acting only, giving you false hope which I know you won't never ever like it. Pardon me for 'neglecting' you. I know you are feeling tired and wanting to salvage this r/s, but I'm really afraid that this time it doesn't works. Don't treat me that good anymore, I scare I will disappoint you:/ Sorry and thanks for what you've done for me. To be honest, I’ve been thinking of having a breakup with you recently. The feeling of breakup was very strong on wed, maybe I get influence from friends? That’s why feeling was damm strong on that day. (80% is because of him, 20%is that I found single is good.) The moment I see you, seriously, the suggestion disappear from my mind. But dk why, it came back again:/ I really dk wht to do now, I’m afraid I will regret if breakup with you. If I do regret, there’s also nothing for me to do. That’s why my friends told me to think hard before I make any decision. I told Sandy this and I found is so true, I’m really dam biased. I’m sorry!!!SIHUI:” I will only totally focus on zj IF HE has someone in mind or be together with other girl.”SANDY:”It’s so unfair to zj, zj had to wait till HIM find other girl then you will give up.”
My mind are confused. I dunno what to do next. Give me some time.
Bye Diary,
11:59 pm
Went to town with Zhao jie and Kiahui to meet Sandy they all for dinner at SAKURA! (To help me celebrate my birthday!!) Shopped around with Jan while waiting for our turn(: I need a bag badly, my current bag can't really tahan me for long :( Started dinner with Kiahui, Jan, Sandy, Amos, Shun Cheng, Foong Wah, Bing Liang and Zhao jie. Sean, Sin Jin and Chelsea joined us later(: Thanks guys for your present, LOVE it soooo much :D I do enjoy my day very much. Went crazy with that insane Jan, make me feel so tired-.- Lols. I admit I old le(: Isn't a really good day for today, many unhappy/misunderstanding things happened. Well, Sorry if I've comment anything bad. Don't really mean it, it was just a casual comment.
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12:52 am
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! But the happiness turn into misery-.- Today wasn't a good day either. Cheer up, My friends! (: My Friends: Time to let it go even though it hurt alot. Time will heal everything.
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10:49 pm
I don't see fate between me and him:/ I'm sorry that I mentioned him again.
Bye Diary,
2:36 am
False Hopes- that's the only description of my feeling to you in your mind. Even if I treat you good from my bottom of heart, you wouldn't feel real happy at all. Because in your mind,false hope is all what you think. It's hurt me when I read from your blog, you doesn't believe/trust me. I found myself so dumb doing all those happy things with you when you don't even believe me that I'm real. It's really hurt:/ I know it's hard for you to believe me up to this point of time especially after 'him' incident ocurs.My attitude and behaviour weren't positive towards you at the begining, but you continue clinging on; showing me all your care and concern. To be truthful, I was really moved by what you done. And that's why I'm trying my best not to think of him when I'm with you. True enough, after much attempts I finally did it. I told you this before. For a period of time, I even thought of choosing you instead of him. Wanting to show more care for you, think more of you and miss you. Yes, for that period, I think I really like you very much. I really like the period spending with you going out. And I admit that sometime I will miss/think of him. But all because of your 'false hope', everything seems to like go back to zero. All go back to the very past. Guess it need some time again for me to get back those feeling for you again. Don't bother to explain much to me if you saw this post. It will only make me feel more sad about it. Just treat this as a random posting. Just it as you never read at all. Thanks. Tears kept coming out while I'm blogging. Holyshit
Bye Diary,
11:31 pm
Many things to rush over this weekend. (Comm skill presentation, IT1193- websites and project file, buying of formal attire... ... ...) There goes my sleeping time once again-.- Shopping day tml, mainly for formal attire purpose:( This is so S-A-D. I want a real Shopping day!!! Sandy and Jan aren't free tml because Jan is meeting her bf:/ Lols. That's why Jan told me ytd (: But shopping with zj is damm weird, idk why (maybe I feel shy! LOLS.) Hopefully kh can make it to join us after her work :D
Bye Diary,
11:29 pm
Random posting!!! I want Wong SK to be my java teacher, I like the way she teach java(: Alright, train-ed to jp for movie WANTED. Movie was dammm nice lah only that some part cant catch the ball. Hahaha (: Was looking through photos min ago, many thing run through in my mind. Suddenly feel like going back to secondary life!! Life wasn't as stress as now, things are much simpler than now(: Sweet,happy, sad things happened in secondary school will always stored in my mind(: I miss all those good time... ... ... and it's been a long while... .... ...
Bye Diary,
11:53 pm